Why do us gays always have to be better then the other?? For example one guys abs is a six pack so 10 others have to be better and get an 8 pack or a 10 pack. With the sole reason of just being better then the first. Now this is not just in the gay community by far.
Here in Utah we are rated the most Vainest State in the union. Now I know that would surprise some people but here we like to complete with the Jones. Now the gay community is known for being vain designer cloths, always at the gym, newest gadget, nicest car. Now here it seems to be magnified by 10. This can cause a great problem to those who don't know how to manage their money. This I can see being a huge problem with myself as well as a lot of my friends.
Now being vain can help as well I know because of my lifestyle I want to lose weight so it is the driving force of making me go to the gym. I already feel healthier because of this. But it is the part where a lot of my friends are in debt and it is getting worse. I believe as a community we need to learn more then anyone to live within our means. It can be tough I hate it when a friend calls and wants to go to dinner or go some where and I can't afford it so what do I do?? I spend money I don't have. I know I am not the only one who does this of my friends. What I believe we need to do is understand that if we live in a budget that we can then save and have money for these things. But it is going to take us to say now and then "No I can't go maybe next time". I know this is my new goal and I hope it is the goal of everyone
Monday, June 15, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Quick life overview
So this is a blog I put out on MySpace a while ago but I thought I would republish it here so you can understand where I am coming from. I will be blogging here from now on and about twice a week.
One of my first memories is when I was 8 or 9 my mom left my dad for a woman. Now I did not know or understand the feelings she was having or how hard it is to live a lie. I can remember the night I found out they were getting a divorce . We were moving my bed around in my room in kayseville UT. They were yelling back and forth and my mom said "I can't wait till we get a divorce". That hurt. So I lived with my dad for the rest of my childhood.
Now I don't know the exact day I realized I was gay. I believe no one can know you just are. I grew up LDS and if you don't know they have a strong intolerance for gays. I remember sitting in seminary and being attracted to some of my fellow classmates but the teacher saying it was evil and that it was not natural. So I had to keep my feelings secret. One night I thought for sure I would be caught cause my dad found out that I was looking at porn. But he did not look at what type it was. Well I made it through high school with out to much trouble. I really belive more people knew but did not say anything.
My first year of college was up at Utah State. September 11th happened and I reevaluated my life and started attending gay pride where I met my first boy friend Josh. Well we went out for about 3 months and I thought I was in love. Well all of the suddenly he broke up with me. I was so devastated I went to my LDS bishop and he said that I felt so bad cause these homosexual feelings were not correct. And he told me that the way to get rid of it was to go on a mission and then come home and get married.
I did that even though I felt like I was teaching something that I did not agree with. I got home and got married right after to a very nice lady. We were married for about 2 years and then I could not handle it anymore so I came out and we got divorced. I have a bad taste in my mouth for the church for some bogus advice given to me. So now I'm out and happy. I try to be politically involved.
One of my first memories is when I was 8 or 9 my mom left my dad for a woman. Now I did not know or understand the feelings she was having or how hard it is to live a lie. I can remember the night I found out they were getting a divorce . We were moving my bed around in my room in kayseville UT. They were yelling back and forth and my mom said "I can't wait till we get a divorce". That hurt. So I lived with my dad for the rest of my childhood.
Now I don't know the exact day I realized I was gay. I believe no one can know you just are. I grew up LDS and if you don't know they have a strong intolerance for gays. I remember sitting in seminary and being attracted to some of my fellow classmates but the teacher saying it was evil and that it was not natural. So I had to keep my feelings secret. One night I thought for sure I would be caught cause my dad found out that I was looking at porn. But he did not look at what type it was. Well I made it through high school with out to much trouble. I really belive more people knew but did not say anything.
My first year of college was up at Utah State. September 11th happened and I reevaluated my life and started attending gay pride where I met my first boy friend Josh. Well we went out for about 3 months and I thought I was in love. Well all of the suddenly he broke up with me. I was so devastated I went to my LDS bishop and he said that I felt so bad cause these homosexual feelings were not correct. And he told me that the way to get rid of it was to go on a mission and then come home and get married.
I did that even though I felt like I was teaching something that I did not agree with. I got home and got married right after to a very nice lady. We were married for about 2 years and then I could not handle it anymore so I came out and we got divorced. I have a bad taste in my mouth for the church for some bogus advice given to me. So now I'm out and happy. I try to be politically involved.
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